Temptation

It is enough. I have to confess. Reading the holy book did not help much. Walking all along the sea did not fully help. I must admit, otherwise it won't go away... Perhaps he has touched my heart. No. This is absurd. What I am truly sure is that when I see him, I get too excited. Yes, this is what I have observed, and I confidently report. I get too excited. I feel like a child. For the record, by default I behave like a child. But, with him my child becomes naughty and out of control. After I leave him, I get too mad at myself. Really mad.

Maybe I am just exaggerating. But it is what I feel inside. No idea how I look from outside. I read somewhere from a wise man that if you want to understand who has a good soul or a bad soul, see how you feel when he leaves you. If you feel good, he has a good soul, otherwise, he does not. Does it mean that he has a bad soul? In fact, I do not feel bad. I feel excited, disturbed. My inner peace is gone with him. This is also different from my status after a profound scientific discussion. Then, I am not disturbed. Indeed, I feel united, while my head is the core. But with him, I feel disturbed. I think the reason is becoming quite clear... this is admittedly sexual attraction.